today

I'm trying so hard to smile,  I'm fighting the tears back with every breath I take,  It hurts so much everything just came crashing down I want to run away and hide,  to go to sleep and never wake up.  I know now the truth and I wish to god I didn't!  Knowing that I ment nothing to the man I loved,  knowing that he just threw me away like an empty can Hurts more than you could even imagine,  the only human being I ever gave my heart too not only didn't love me but didn't care, dosn't even bat an eye at the thought of never seeing me again,  didn't even hesitate to text me that its over!  Just a week ago he told me how he didn't want to lose me and that I was the only girl he wanted!  I loved waking up in his arms those were the best mornings!   In his arms!  Thats the only place I really ever wanted to be!  I love him so much and I just wish God would let me die!