cant let him go

I don't know what to think anymore!  I love him!   I know noone else beleives me but I do.  He's the only man I want in my life the only guy I've ever truley been happy to be with!  I wish on everything that is ment to be wished on I pray that someday he will be mine. I'm so scared it feels like he's getting further and further away and likeing me less and less everyday.  He's so damn beautiful handsome and wonderful.  He makes me so happy I love to be around him and there is noplace else id'e rather be then in his arms.  Love is just a feeling and emotion a thought that can come and go or stay noone else but me could possible know if i love him or not and I just wish people would stop telling me that I don't love him because I do I know how I feel and I have never felt this way about anyone ever!  He says just wait and see how things go and maybe we will be together again but i'm not dum I'm pretty sure thats code for "not likley goana happen"  all time is going to do is make it so he can find more and more reasons why he shouldn't be with me!  I wish he understood how much I cared  I wonder if he knows I would never ever do anything to hurt him or upset him i hope i havn't screwed things up!  ohhhh i rele rele hope I didn't fuck things up again