fuck it

I'm not really sure what people think of me anymore.  So far it seems I complain to much,  I'm not a good girlfriend, I only care about myself,  I don't give other people enough credit, I'm always pissy, I'm often bitchy, I don't know how lucky I am and sooo much more.  I mean everyone says they like me Except Jen and Greg they seem to really hate me.  I wish people would see that my life isn't all that great I mean I don't live with my mom anymore because I don't get along with her boyfriend!  I lost everything that I worked so hard for when she kicked me out,  I never had a good relationship with my family and we moved all the time I live with bill who used to be my step dad and now were moving in with our next door neighbor lauren and her kid karissa noone ever appreciates me or realizes that I actually do try people are always putting me down without even caring or realizing it and I'm fucking sick of it!  I'm in love with a boy who proabyly will never love me back I miss my mom but she's such a self centered abusive bitch at times!  She tried to force me to brake up with a guy i had been with for 2 years because she said I wasn't capable of loving anyone!  that is such bull shit especially since at the time she was claiming to be in love with a guy she had only been with for a few months!  I'm not that good of a person but maybe I could be If people would just lay the fuck off once in awhile and stop giving me such a hard time about everything