peices

Everything changes for a reason but for what reason?  Do we ever truley know? Or is that just one of the many great secrets of life.. I guess my biggest question is where do I go from here?  Now that my life has ended and began again!  I feel so lost,  It seems like as soon as I get my life together someone makes me have to start all over!  I can't wait to just move away so I can have my own life that none else can just up and ruin whenever the fuck they feel like it.. I hate how people treat me like i'm some goddamn toy or something just constantly chaging me, changing my life changing everything!  I'm so lost and confused I don't know which direction to turn   I'm trying to keep everyone happy but its soo hard sometimes!  I just want to be myself    My boyfriend Nate is the only one who really eccepts me for me and not the person everyone is trying o make me into!  I really want everyone to be happy but I want to be happy too and I just can't be happy liveing somewhere where I have to make beleive that everything is jolly and I have to be someone I'm not!  Everyone just eccpects something diffren't from me and there is reall no way I can pleae everyone!  But the only way I can be happy is if everyone elseis happy!