knife

I always knew it wouldn't matter in the end.  How I felt or How you Felt.  It all just felt like a waste of time but I let myself beleive what you were telling me.  I listened and held on to every word you spoke and I beleived you. With all my heart I beleived you!  I know it was a mistake and I was willing to let it go when I found out what was going on. but after everything you've said. Aftrer everything we have talked about. and even though I never let me guard down for an instant. You still managed to hurt me.  I didn't think you could, I didn't know you had this much of a hold over me.  But to stab me in the back like you did and then to go and play nice just to do it again. What kind of person does that to someone?  Rather you loved me or not how could you do that to anyone?  I know I said things I shouldn't have but when someones coming at you with a knife its only instinct to strike back.  I would have been there for you no matter what.  I never wanted anything in return, never wanted you to leave her for my friendship.  I never asked anything of you and you still treat me like this.   Your life is the way it is by your own making.  you need to do something about it or die wollowing in your own self pitty....