speaking my mind

I told you how I felt and I know you feel it was too late but I didn't mean it the way it seemed.  I wanted to be there for you I never meant to push so hard but you were throwing your life away and I hated watching you hate your life.  I know how it seems but I was there for you if you needed me you just chose not to care. Your familys more important than I am but I was there first you told me the truth only to cover it up with lies and make me out to be a liar.  You promised me that she was lying but you lured me into a trap and set me on fire.  I didn't mean the things I said but the words you were using the games you chose to play they caught me off guard I never expected you to stab me in the back I never excpected you to turn.  I know your afraid but you can't let fear gain control your emotions have led you to a dead end but you can always turn around..   I'm not saying it won't be hard it will  but what other choice do you have unless you plan to fall to your knees and admit defeat.  I loved you as a friend I wanted to know you but most importantly I wanted to help you.  You ran away when you were surrounded by so many poeple who loved you and I have searched for the reason why but only you know. Only you know why you have treated me the way you have when I have been nothing but good to you until you pushed me off the edge.  I told you that I cared that I was sorry for the things that have gone wrong but i'm not the one who turned my back, i'm not the one who is lying.  It's you....  Its always been you